inarticulate

in⋅ar⋅tic⋅u⋅late 
–adjective
lacking the ability to express oneself, esp. in clear and effective speech


I feel like this is one of my favorite words lately. And really it describes me well. Many people may say I am a good pubic speaker, but if I don't memorize what I am going to say before I say it, I stumble and get nervous about being put on the spot. In normal conversation though, there are so many times I feel like I put my foot in my mouth, because I try to descibe something, but don't do it too well. well that's because I am inarticulate. It seems like I can never find the words that I want to say. Or I say something, but its not quite "right"

I feel like with Easter, and studying of the passover, Moses has come up a bit lately, and I am reminded of his inability of clear speech, or his studdering problem. I think this gives me hope that I don't have to be perfect when I talk, or worried about saying the right stuff, but God will and can help me to be effective, even when I don't trust in myself.