ugggghhh!!!!!

so I am basically feeling like that. UGH!!!! I look and my support stuff, and wish there was more that I could be doing. I wish somedays that I did just work a plain and simple 9-5 job, and not have to worry about raising support. but then I realize I would probably be worrying about something else going on at work, or complaining about something else.

It just goes to show that whatever you are doing, you will always find something to not be happy about. I know it is probably because of the original Fall. the work would be tedious and difficult, but then I also know that there is so much going on, so much more at work here. Satan does not want me to do this job. He would be perfectly happy with me being in some "regular job" effecting only a small sphere of people around me. and I know God is teaching me so much by depending on him. I just wish I could see the end, or be looking back from the end seeing the fruits of all my efforts.

Please be praying for me that God would help bring in my support quickly!