snow?

I feel like I should put a picture of snow up, since it has been snowing on and off all day today... not much on the ground though, just falling pretty.

I was going to complain that it really sucks how bad the economy is right now, and my friends that I met at New Staff Training in Orlando have been feeling a lot similar. I hear how things with them have been going, and I realize that it's just that time of year. Everyone is getting hyped up about the holidays. Everything becomes a big ordeal, and no one has time for meeting with people to hear about what God is doing, they all have so many other things to do, and I don't blame them!

I am praying so hard for all those who have or are possibly going to lose their jobs with GM. If you aren't in Michigan... an update... almost everyone in Michigan works for or has family that works for GM, Ford, and Chrysler. So this market is absolutely terrible, and I don't know anyone that is not being affected by what's going on. So my prayers are with you!!!

For me, support is getting difficult. I get it into my head that if I don't do everything just so then I won't get my support in. I think it is all my efforts. I see myself as failing since I am not doing as well as I had hoped I was. but that's the problem. I.

The last paragraph has the word "I" or "me" or "my" 14 times!!!!! 4(-ish) sentances. I am comgin to the point where I need to remember it is Him. He is the one that is doing this. not me. He is taking care of me, and providing for me. What I am asking of Him is mere pocket change, but every single penny feels like a mountain to me. ( Mt 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.")

Thank you so much for all your prayers... specifically, be praying I would get $400 a month in support come in so I can pay for the utilities while my parents go to Florida for the winter. I know God will do everything in His timing not mine, and I am counting on it, it just gets so hard to trust and depend fully on Him for everything. Everywhere I go, everyone tells me that or reminds me of that, and I feel like I hardly need reminding, I am living every day!

My life can be summed up by one word. "Dependent" it's just a matter of who or what I am depending on that makes the difference. when I move from depending on the lord, to my self, that's when I get into trouble. sometimes I wish my life would just fall into place like a fairy tale, but I know God has amazing things in store for me, it's just hard to see the full picture from down here.